March 03, 2010
Running On Empty
What do you do when you run on empty? I'm not talking about your vehicle running out of gas. I mean when you are emotionally and spiritually exhausted. What do you do? What has helped you?
This past weekend has been difficult for my family and I because a close friend of ours died. It was a hard thing to accept. He was a Christian so I know we will see him again but that doesn't mean that his passing doesn't hurt. He will be missed, especially by his wife who had no children and is now completely alone in this world.
We didn't hear about his passing until three days later. But the strangest thing is that the day he died I had been feeling very nostalgic. So I found my childhood photo album and started flipping through captured memories and I paused at a photo of this dear couple. It was taken many years back. They were holding me between themselves. I was a year old. Strange how the heart can sense things we aren't aware of at the time.
So while my family and I reeled from the loss of our friend I received another phone call from a close friend of mine who is like the sister I never had. She was on her way up from the south to visit her only living grandparent who was dying in the hospital. The news came as a shock to my friend because her grandmother was perfectly healthy until just a few weeks ago. And to top things off my friend is getting married next month and had been hoping her grandmother would be present.
So she came to spend a few nights with me and I had to put aside my grief and comfort her. Now that my friend has left, staying with family and waiting for her grandmother to die, I am left to pick up my own grief. And I'm tired. I feel drained. And I suppose that's natural. Grief has a strange way of pulling at our reserves.
I find at times its difficult to focus on work and I'm taking naps. I never take naps. Oh well. This too shall pass. I do hope that all of you are having a better week. God is good even when life is not. His love and his faithfulness endures forever.