Envy. Not necessarily for any physical possession someone else had but for the surplus of success they experienced. To see it happen to people who don't care about living a moral life, to see it happen to people who have never trusted God for anything... it hit a sore spot in my heart.
Psalm 73:3 " For I envied the proud when I saw them prosper despite their wickedness."
I've witnessed people attain everything they ever wanted even when they lived in a way that was so contrary to God's will. Some of these individuals called themselves Christians and yet they didn't harbor any guilt and continued living as they wished, suffering no consequences.
Which taught me two things:
1. It is possible that some people who think they are Christians really are not.
2. Just because someone knows Christ as their savior doesn't mean they will choose to resist
the natural darkness in their own heart.
We know envy is wrong. Why should anyone envy anyone for anything? No two people are exactly alike. That makes life beautiful and fascinating!
I hate envy and what it does to people. I hate that, at times, I find it in my own heart. Because it means that deep down inside I'm not trusting God with my life. Because having envy means that I'm comparing myself to others around me. That is something God never does to any of us!
God doesn't compare me to you or you to the person next to you. God compares us to Himself. And if we accept Jesus as our savior then we are beautiful and desirable to Him. We don't have to try and have or be anything more than what we already are! And I think at times this is the most difficult thing to understand.
Perhaps part of the problem is that in our society we define success as the people who make the most money, have the highest degrees, have the most ideal spouses, and the most talented kids. If what we have doesn't equal the best of the next person then we are lesser than them.
This is the way the world thinks. This is the way of the natural heart. But God urges us to see the world and ourselves through His eyes, through His heart. It shouldn't matter what anyone else has but what you and I do with what God has given us.
So why do we compare ourselves to others? Why do we question our self worth? Why do the wicked prosper?
I know what I think but I would love to hear what your thoughts are on the subject. Please feel free to share in the comments.
God bless you as you continue to seek His will in your life.