All I know is that I'm discouraged. Try as I might I can't solve the issues surrounding me and the harder I try, the more exhausted I become. The Bible says that we should cast all our cares on God because He cares for us. So I do. But sometimes God is silent and nothing seems to change.
I'll be the first to admit that I'm not a terribly patient person. I like results and I like them relatively quickly. But that is often not how God chooses to act. So I get frustrated and I start to worry and fret and that does nothing to solve anything. In fact, worrying only causes more problems.
So I guess I'll just have to keep trusting and praying and obeying. I'm sorry this post isn't a very happy one but if any of you readers have a spare moment I would so appreciate a few prayers.